“It only takes one step to start. That’s what he told me. Seemed simple enough. So…why can’t I find momentum?”
You’re not ready yet.
“I thought I was. A man can only take so much, before something gives.”
I know. I understand. It takes time, and a real commitment. Unfortunately, many people choose to go the other way.
“But, the prayer was the first step, right? I mean, I feel like I’m not so…alone…anymore.”
It was. You’re not. But, it can’t stop there. I have so much more in store for you. The plans I have for you, are to give you a hope and a future you can’t even begin to imagine. But, you have to willingly choose to go deeper.
“Pastor says that all the time. I never really understood what it meant. Go deeper, how? He told me one step would change my life.”
And it has. Now that you have a new life, you need to lay down the old one. Part of doing that is getting to know me. I don’t want you to simply know my name. I want you to get to know me intimately. That’s going deeper.
“How do I do that exactly? You’re not going to tell me I need to throw out all of my music, ditch all of my friends, relinquish my intelligence and start meditating all day, are you?”
HA! That’s funny. No, nothing like that. I want you to get close to my Word. Don’t fear it anymore. Learn from it. It’s me. In time, you’ll find me throughout its entirety. I’ve always been there. I’ll always be there. I AM.
“What’s that mean?”
It means from the beginning to the end, I will always be. Since you’ve called, and I came, I will never leave you. I will fight for you, but I will not compete for your love. You have to willingly choose.
“What’s the choice I have to make? Why can’t you just come into my life and add good things to what I already have? Why does there have to be a choice?”
I know it seems hard at first. Maybe even unfair. But it has to be this way. Light and darkness can’t coexist. You have to choose between the life I offer and the life behind you.
“So…no middle ground? No compromise?”
No. But I promise you this: though the road may get rough, I’ll always walk it with you; one step at a time. Soon enough, you’ll find that the music you loved, some of the friends you cherished, even your former way of thinking will seem flawed compared to what I will show you.
“And what’s that? I’m already bad off. Giving up all the good stuff in my life is going to gain what?”
My peace; a peace you’ve never known but have always yearned for. You already feel a small portion of it.
“How do you know?”
Yes. Let that sink in for a moment.
“Jesus—it feels weird to speak your name out loud.”
I know it does, at first. Don’t be ashamed.
“Jesus, I want to try to get to know you better. Will you help me?”
Absolutely. Now, we’re walking together.